Abusive childhoods and addictions often go hand in hand. The pain of what happened to us that should never have occurred and what didn’t happen that should have create an emotional intersection of excruciating agony that addictions are more than happy to take away…until they start to make your life unmanageable. Addictions are called diseases of losses because if done long enough your substance or behavior of choice will take everything precious from you until the addiction finally takes your life. We may have been able to pull ourselves back from the precipice and stopped using heroin, cocaine, and crystal meth. However if we never dealt with the underlying issues the grief, the anger, the depression is still lurking just under the surface, and the drive to medicate is still there. No one can rationalize like an addict, and they can justify new forms of mood altering because what they are now using is legal. That individual may be guzzling a bottle of Nyquil every evening, but after all, it’s only over- the- counter syrup. You may be doctor shopping for pain meds, but that broken arm has just not healed right. You may be drinking a 12-pack of beer an evening when alcohol was never your thing, but it’s sold right down the street at the convenience store.
Denial is not just a river in Egypt. It is also an acronym of Don’t Even (K)now I Am Lying. It is essential that if we are ever to come to grips with the pain and heartache of what happened to us while growing up we will have to stop hiding behind walls, putting up barricades that keep us from facing the truth. You can’t heal what you can’t feel, and something that is legal to use can be just as effective in keeping you from doing the hard recovery work necessary as something that would get you thrown in front of a judge. If you are experiencing continuing addiction issues (even if you have switched addictions and are now using something legal) here is the address for the central office of AA in Dayton:
Suite 211 Hulman Building
120 W Second Street
Dayton, OH- Telephone: (937) 222-2211
In addition this is a link that will take you to a pdf file for all of the Narcotics Anonymous meetings in the Dayton area:http://www.dascna.org/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=73&Itemid=81