The body mind needs rest in order for it to function correctly. Many people wake up and enter the world of consciousness and do not spend time recalling their dreams from their previous state of rest. It is important to become aware of our unconsciousness in order to choose the life you want to live. The unconsciousness will take a lot more time exploring because it is not as clear as the conscious mind. Listening to your body and being able to incorporate your thoughts objectively before an action occurs is the best lesson I have learned in life as of now. This has led me into a daily meditation practice and also a pathway that makes sense for my inner being. Studying myself inside has given me the capacity to understand how to not be as emotionally reactive. My personal belief is that our bodies are the foundation for communication from our unconsciousness to our consciousness. The unconscious sends emotional charges to the brain and translates the emotional charge into what we intellectually understand. Harmony of communication between the consciousness and the unconsciousness is my goal daily.
The internal world and your external world coexist together even though your ego may try to repress this communication by masking with superficial messages. The ego causes us to make choices based on patterns or beliefs we created from our past. I am personally grateful to have an ego because I learn about myself through my emotional reactions and ego programming. My joy comes from being able to recognize that this pattern was developed in the past for a reason; this gives me gratitude towards my ego. Gratitude makes the emotional reactions smaller and then the brain begins to rewire to create new patterns. My adult self is much different than my child self in ways that I approach life. I simply thank my ego for keeping me protected as a child and then meditate that some forms of the ego do not serve me anymore. I have come to realize that many of my patterns were based on models I had growing up and now I have internal conflicts. I can now work through those conflicts and recreate patterns that are in sync with my true self. Gratitude and forgiveness are the two most useful tools for me because I recognize that we all experience the world differently.
Experience is a word that has billions of meanings because each person has a different perspective. My main work as a psychotherapist is to not make assumptions with clients and stay curious as I enter the client’s world. I find it fascinating to feel through the emotions of my clients because feelings are a universal language. The evolution of my development right now is learning to linger in the unknown and sit with the feelings of not having a conclusion of my client’s life. Learning to sit with feelings and let the feelings pass has taught me that all feelings are part of the healing process and that negative feelings can also be learning opportunities just as much as positive feelings. I enjoy meditating during my negative emotions because I observe my thoughts and realize that these thoughts do not serve me. This helps me sit with uncomfortable feelings in the room with my clients and models coping skills.