I grew up in a religious home and was in church every Wednesday and Sunday. As a child, I felt that I was loved only when I followed the rules. The rules didn’t seem to be black and white but more dependent upon the emotional state of mind within the house on a given day. As a teenager, I began to feel there was no hope for me as far as being good, so I snuck around, did what I wanted, broke the rules and just had fun.
After my second divorce, life was no longer fun. At the age of 32, life had become a drag and I started searching for answers to the meaning of life. That’s when I discovered the most fundamental truth (or rule) in life. I couldn’t believe I had been in church my entire life and never learned this one basic truth. I read John 14:6; “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me.” I needed Jesus to get into heaven and to show me how to live.
That truth led me to Romans 10:9-10; “If you confess with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord,” and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved. I confessed, believe and was saved. This was my first experience ever feeling unconditional love. I was a sinner and God saved me from myself.
I knew my salvation was real but over time I lost that loving feeling. Although I had been given new life with my salvation, I continued walking in my old life. Although I was active in a new church and participated in small group I didn’t have anyone to teach me how to be a Christian. Then in 2005, a godly man came into my life and we married in 2007. I was suddenly motivated to work out my salvation with fear and trembling because I had to figure out what a good Christian wife looked like! And so, I started reading the Bible. As my love for Christ grew, my love for my husband and our children grew as well. I felt myself beginning to transform into the woman God originally designed me to be. And then I lost my job. I started reading the Bible even more because I wanted to know God’s will and discover my purpose. As long as I had worked I always felt that I had served God in my spare time. I gave Him my leftover resources. It was time to love and serve Him with my whole heart. I had sacrificed my life to him in 1999 when I was saved, but it wasn’t until 2011 that I sacrificed my entire heart to Him.
I learned the one fundamental truth that set me free and I experienced unconditional love and grace for the first time when I was saved. It has taken me almost 12 years since that time to come to the point where I was able to sacrifice my entire heart and life to Him though. If you want to change and walk in new life, there are 3 things you’re going to need and that is; truth, unconditional love and time.
- You get the truth from reading God’s word and being around people who read God’s word.
- You get the unconditional love from reading God’s word, praying and being around people who pray and read God’s word.
- Over time, you’ll be transformed into the person God created you to be. You’ll discover the real you and you’ll learn what your purpose in life is.
Religion is easy because it involves following someone else’s set of rules. Relationship isn’t easy because it involves figuring out precisely where we end and other people begin. However, when we listen to our heart and take control of our thoughts, our behavior can be used for good over time and we are blessed as a result.